Addicted… to chocolate

When I was younger I tried to figure out my addiction or my bad habit.  Some were smoking some were playing slot machines, others were addicted to betting… it seemed like everyone had something they could say about „that’s my thing” or „I can’t live without it” – what did we know about living without something at that age, almost nothing, but if it was something you felt really strongly about (come to think of it now, being quite hormonal at that age, we felt strongly about lots of things and feelings 😛 ) you would say that, albeit it was about a bad, harmful habit… and also because you heard the grown-ups say it and so it was a cool thing to say.

Enough digressing from the subject. The thing is I realised then I didn’t have one big, bad habit or something I could say I was addicted to. I had „a thing for the TV set” 😛 … I could watch TV for HOURS – no joke – especially when we started to have more than 2 channels to flip through.  I also had the sweet tooth thing … but nothing that I could admit to in front of peers and look cool(-ish) like let’s say… smoking.

Then smoking made both guys and girls badass-cool, edgy and kinda sexy 😀 , and as one would probably see I would not fit in admitting to being hooked on watching TV, sweets, daydreaming or even knitting *blush*.

Well, as I grew older and into a more defined me I realised that I have developed a very sweet tooth. Like someone (an actor) said in an interview: „I have a sweet tooth like nobody’s business”, more precisely I LOVE CHOCOLATE. I mean I could go a whole day eating nothing but chocolate and other variations of sweets.

*whispers* I am a chocolate addict. There I said it.

I also started smoking about a year ago, but it’s only an occasional/social habit. It didn’t,  still doesn’t stick 😛 like chocolate. That’s my real addiction, and I don’t feel less cool or that I don’t fit in anymore because I learned that in womanhood not having a thing for chocolate makes you the outsider 😛 .

I realised all this today, while mixing butter and cocoa powder and milk.

Have a chocolatey weekend.

Happy Valentine’s Day !

*note: Thanks to this entry I learned to upload pics to my posts too, yay 😀 .


aaaaahhhhhh !!! can’t wait, it sooooo far away …

but I have this little widget to help me count the days, hours and minutes left until I can see the movie 😀



Hypontizing pictures

Here is an article I found on Yahoo! about some really hypnotizing and head-ache giving pictures: http://health.yahoo.com/featured/46/8-mind-boggling-optical-illusions/

The List

So… here I go (in a very random order):

  • change blog’s appearance; done on Oct. 17, 2009
  • if I do decide to go through with the second year (the last one, and I have to decide until Monday!) of my MA Program, make it count: take part in as many internships and projects as time after work and classes will allow you;  Feb. 11, 2010: Well, I decided not to continue with the classes, so I „froze” my studies for one year though now I get the feeling that it might be for longer… a lot longer… like maybe until-I-have-my-midlife-crisis longer :)))
  • get to as many classes as possible; Feb. 11, 2010: canceled by the previous bullet
  • get in shape: lose some weight (post daily about your progress);
  • keep going to aqua-gym every Saturday!!! Feb. 11, 2010: stopped after I cought a really bad cold and once winter started completely fell off my radar… maybe I’ll take it up again when the warm weather comes back
  • be done procrastinating; (Feb. 12, 2010: not done yet)
  • be done putting up false barriers for everything you want to do; (Feb. 12, 2010: not done yet either, but at least working on it )
  • take care of your manicure and pedicure and put on nail polish  more often;
  • wear skirts and dresses more often; Feb. 12, 2010: done and somehow I picked the coldest days to do it. I think I’ve more than acquited myself of this for the rest of the winter … brrrrr
  • renew wardrobe slowly by purchasing something new to wear, or a new accessory every month and post about your purchase;
  • start thinking seriously about starting your own business; write down what would your business do (I’m thinking about a coffee shop, or a small restaurant, or something that involves a little bit of cooking); (still only just thinking about it, didn’t get to the serious part just yet :)) )
  • cities&countries I want to go to: New York, Miami, Los Angeles, San Francisco, Seattle, Chicago, London, Paris, Amsterdam, The Netherlands, Stockholm, Madrid, Barcelona, Bruxelles, Belgium, Greece, Prague, Egypt, Israel, Sidney, Tokyo (basically a tour around the World, that would be the best thing ever :)) ) and post about every place I go to, with pictures;
  • visit more of Romania and post about it, with pictures;
  • become an active volunteer in an NGO that helps children and elders, post about it (think I found one, just have to register as a volunteer :D);
  • start going to the theatre, opera (at least try it once), ballet;
  • see more movies at the cinema rather than  at home on my PC;
  • go to  different events (advertising, film festivals, whatever seems interesting) and post about the experience;
  • visit the museums and art galleries in Bucharest;
  • meet more people;
  • make more friends;
  • get a boyfriend (there, now everyone’s going to know I’m boyfriend-less. ugh);
  • decide where to spend New Year’s: at a Taize meeting in Poznan, Poland or with family in Romania. Due date for decision: December 1; Feb. 12, 2010: decided sometime in late Nov. but forgot about this list :D; chose to go to Poznan, Poland and it was the best choice I could have made… had A GREAT TIME, met new people and made new friends … happy times 😀 (click here for pictures)
  • cook more often once the stove arrives, and post about it; those will be happy days :D;
  • post more often; don’t let good ideas go away!
  • give acting lessons a try, really make an effort to enrol in acting classes;
  • continue with horseback ridding lessons; learn to gallop!!!
  • own a horse;
  • own my own house. Buy one or build one like the house that keeps coming up in my dreams :D;
  • learn to play one of these instruments: violin, piano or guitar;

To be continued…

I made a decision today. I’ve decided to write on this blog my own little wish list. A wish list for all my plans: things I want to have, places I want to go&see, things I want to do, movies I want to see, goals I want to achieve (like for instance <get in shape!!!>, that will be the first point on my goals’ list, and I am working on that starting today), and all kinds of other things I might be wishing for in the future.

There’s a chapter in the Bible (and I’m not a religious person mind you, at all, I think religion is a private and personal thing, but maybe I’ll write about that some other time) that says  „Ask, and Ye shall receive/ Ye have not, because Ye ask not” (Matthew) and that’s exactly what I’ll be doing here. I am going to ask God, or the Universe itself, friends, family and of course myself to help ME make all the things on my list happen. 

If you’ve read the book „The Secret” or have seen the film then you should understand what I mean :). The main idea there, is that if you want something, anything, you should just ask for it, wish for it with all your heart and mind and somehow step by step, sometimes without even realising it, you’ll make the right decision and take the right steps and turns and you will get what you asked/wished for. The line you will read/hear the most is „the Universe will make it happen”.  And that’s what I want to do with this list of mine. I want to put my goals and wishes out there, have them written for once, and see what happens.

I’m thinking that having my goals and wishes written here and seeing them almost everyday will finally help me stop procrastinating and postponing, stop finding excuses and putting up false barriers for myself, and become more determined to take action to get to where and what I want, to make good on the promises I make to myself (like cutting down the amount of sugar I ingest in one day).  ‘Cause if there’s one thing I hate (and this may be because I may have OCD, but it hasn’t been diagnosed yet :)) ) is to have or make a list and not be able to check all the points on that list as „done”. It makes me feel like such a failure, and it makes me angry with myself. Seriously. That’s the effect that wish-lists or goals-lists or lists in general, have on me. If I don’t carry it through then it stays there in the back of my mind and keeps nagging me. It’s like something hovering over my head and not leaving until I get things done. Soo annoying!!!

I keep making lists upon lists in my head and I don’t write them down ‘cause (confident voice) „It’s fine, I’ll remember this, and that, and that too. I’ll start to work on that tomorrow…”, but I won’t. I won’t because usually when I make those lists in my head I’m at work, and by the time I get home I’m tired or get distracted with something else on the computer and I never get to write anything down, and later they’ll keep popping out in my head again and again.

So, I have decided to write all my wishes&goals here and then work on them to make them happen. I’ll either take each point on my list and talk about the progress I’m making, or I’ll write about it when accomplished. As each wish comes true or when I carry out a goal, I will check it off the list (I don’t know how to de that here exactly, but I’ll see to it then :D).

To the list, I say ! 


Paramore – Playing God

Paramore – Playing God
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Source:  http://www.trilulilu.ro/ReptilaCuTepi/01d17aa4d51328

I LOVE this song and this band !!!
the song keeps playing on an on in may head since last night when I first heard it full version. It’s from their latest album „Brand New Eyes”. I haven’t checked to see if it got to Romania yet, it was released not long ago and from my experience with albums from other foreign bands it takes some time to get here.
All in all, I love their songs and their style.

Some of the other favorites are: Misery Business, Pressure, Turn it off, Careful, Decode and I caught myself (these were the first songs I heard from them, thanks to Twilight – which I  am also crazed about, but I’ll write about it some other time – and my interest in the band and their songs has been spiralling up eversince), Fences, CrushCrushCrush, Emergency, That’s what you get…, Ignorance, Decoy  and more :).